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Post by computermandan on Dec 1, 2014 15:22:12 GMT
ok had an email with details... they're used to dealing with people like me I guess lol...
We would ask if you could (where possible): 1. Bring a parent or someone who knew you well in early childhood (0-12 years of age) with you to assist with your appointment. 2. Please also bring any school reports that you may have. 3. Please complete the enclosed questionnaires and bring them with you to your appointment. The questionnaires include those to be completed by an informant from both childhood (eg parent/relative/elder sibling) and adulthood (eg partner/friend/relative who has seen you regularly over the previous 6 months).
this could be interesting...
Dad... "there's nothing wrong with him" Mum... "I don't understand, stop picking on him he's fine" Age 0-12 Friends... "Dan's just a bit nuts like he's always been"
confuzzled.
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Post by computermandan on Dec 1, 2014 14:59:17 GMT
wahey... just took a call on my mobile from a nice chap named Gary at Maudsley... assessment booked for 19th Jan yay!
now I'm panicking about getting there and undecided on taking anyone with me (if allowed) lol.
relieved yet cautious.
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Post by computermandan on Nov 14, 2014 12:00:37 GMT
watch implants are my only hope... leave the silly things everywhere. google glasses perhaps?
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Post by computermandan on Nov 11, 2014 14:26:02 GMT
we buy board games for Christmas to play on boxing day every year... boxing day gameplay never occurs but sometimes we get round to playing them in June having fallen on someone when the stuff on top of the cupboard gets too much for the cupboard to cope with anymore. lol.
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Post by computermandan on Nov 6, 2014 14:56:30 GMT
Fell right into that trap today on two things: 1) Responded too quickly to a neighbour's text message. I think many people think this is weird - especially the non-techies out there 2) Went about my daily routine without making a list. I was all over the place with thoughts taking me from one incoherent step to the next and on to another. A new list soon sorted me out. I have to say I do 1) a lot - mostly with emails... people then think you're their dedicated support person for the day. Also it's usually due to over excitement (impulse) and sways towards missing the point of the email I'm replying to in the first place. as for 2) I try this every morning and usually end up with the CEO catching me playing clash of clans at my desk on my mobile. oops. lists just work don't they!
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Post by computermandan on Nov 5, 2014 16:14:55 GMT
when you are sitting on the toilet and get in your head that you need the scissors from the top shelf, so you stop halfway through, stand up and get the scissors, sit down and continues while you look around and sees absolutely nothing in the proximity that might require scissors. SO SO SO SO SO so happy it's not just me! Once decided to begin regrouting bathroom tiles from that spot too lol
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Post by computermandan on Oct 24, 2014 11:31:50 GMT
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Post by computermandan on Oct 15, 2014 12:40:34 GMT
Please send me to the moon where it looks like it might be quiet and people won't persistently pester me about the things I haven't done and never am likely to get round to doing because they are futile pointless things that just absorb my time and effort when I could be looking up house prices anywhere but here like the moon for example.
Dan's post management groan at me for not keeping client documentation up to date...
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Post by computermandan on Oct 14, 2014 15:33:16 GMT
Slash.. sometimes I wish I would... then I do and it last about 5 minutes before i slip back into aim to please everyone mode again...
are you sure you dont actually know me? lol.
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Post by computermandan on Oct 13, 2014 15:04:03 GMT
thx all... stressing about the whats and where fors now (is that how you write that?)
todays procrastination led me to the SLaM website for Maudsley's services, been browsing all day on and off.
drifting off to "how do I show that I was the same in school etc?" land.
I have some school reports but they don't show too much - a bit of "if only Daniel Applied himself or participated" is all really.
I asked my mother about it all and got "you seemed alright to me" and then drifted off into book+wordsearch+shoppinglist+tv+daydream land again. Dad said "stay away from pills" my old school mates remember some of my quirks like spending all day doing a 30 minute piece of homework and actually getting it done in 15 minutes... but I can't take them with me.
hmmmm... how or what do you do?
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Post by computermandan on Oct 10, 2014 12:52:45 GMT
ok so the resolution post anxiety was to have a "telephone consultation" where the nice lady doctor who agreed to set me on this path in the first place talked to me about the referral and said she had actually dealt with the process herself and brought it up in the funding meeting - oddly enough she seemed almost excited about it ? ? ? "I pushed to get this through as I think it could well be an explanation for your bouts of depression and difficulties we've discussed in the past" so in any case we're back in happy land again as apparently now just waiting on an appointment from the infamous clinic... the race is back on contrarymary
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Post by computermandan on Oct 9, 2014 13:46:05 GMT
aarrrghhh.. so I decide to make an appt.... Saturday is booked. Monday is booked after 3pm... "Does the doctor do video conference appointments?" They didn't appreciate my comment... then I gave up... "I'll call another time" I despise making appointments.
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Post by computermandan on Oct 7, 2014 11:30:40 GMT
and we're back to ridiculously frustrated all over again.. come here to un-chest it all lol.
called GP's as suggested by them after apparent 8 week turnaround for referral feedback??
they didn't have a clue what I was on about. Initially suggested I should have heard from Maudesly (spelling?) in july. then asked if Im still seeing psychologist and I explained as per last letter been discharged by him now. They found the letters then promptly said they had no idea what was happening and maybe I should make an appointment with my GP as I havent seen them for a while...
confusled completly Dan said... yeah ok then.
now perplexed why on earth do I need to catch up with my GP... cup of tea and a chat maybe?
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Post by computermandan on Sept 26, 2014 10:54:20 GMT
when you drop your car off for it's MOT on the way to work only to remember that there was no courtesy car available and you're stuck in the middle of nowhere... cue explanations to work, wife and an emergency 7am wake up call to the Father-in-law to come and rescue you... safely working from the inlaws now. oops.
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Post by computermandan on Sept 9, 2014 10:01:24 GMT
I chew the inside of my mouth a lot... all around the inside of my lips etc - it's a mess good job no one can see... seem to do it in line with focusing hard on something...
been known to aggressively chew my tongue too - so much that my kids ask me for some chewing gum and my wife reacts in disgust... lol thinking about it has set me off now.
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Post by computermandan on Aug 29, 2014 11:54:45 GMT
sounds about right... I wonder if that randomly odd creativity of "The Floyd" was influenced by an ADD mind in some way? ? ?
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Post by computermandan on Aug 22, 2014 9:35:08 GMT
I saw this too late then forgot to post yest. lol... does completing the journey home from work count ? lol Today I will try to leave the office on time and surprise the OH... (potentially too ambiguous???)
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Post by computermandan on Aug 19, 2014 16:13:52 GMT
Whilst I'm here... I wanted to post this somewhere because ever since my Dad played it the words just kind of stuck and became more and more appropriate with age.
Though I think it probably applies to most adults in some way or other I really find it rings true for pretty much anything I've ever wanted to do or be able to do...
the "achievements" in my life so far (wife, 3 kids etc) I've kind of floated through coasting in the "middle" of everybody around me... it's only recently I've noticed I haven't actually DONE anything with the time so far, I certainly haven't really chosen to do anything EVER....
The lyrics are to the song Time by Pink Floyd...
Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way. Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.
Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain. You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today. And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.
So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking Racing around to come up behind you again. The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older, Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.
Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time. Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way The time is gone, the song is over, Thought I'd something more to say.
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Post by computermandan on Aug 19, 2014 16:08:12 GMT
sounds like fun... although at the current rate of progress I'm not sure I'll remember what I was there for!
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Post by computermandan on Aug 19, 2014 15:09:15 GMT
had another psych appointment today... only 20 minutes late after taking the whole morning off to make it on time...
told him I'd stopped taking the citalopram as it just made me "careless" about everything.
he listened and agreed with my reasoning, agreed no more anti-dep meds and will chase the referral for me with GP.
didn't offer any additional suggestions but recognised my moods/anxiety appear to come and go with issues caused by the same patterns of behaviour whilst not erratic visibly its more the distracted lack of focus that causes the issues...
one suggestion he did make was to turn my mobile off at work... seems I've become addicted to mobile gaming apps (oops)
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Post by computermandan on Aug 14, 2014 9:01:41 GMT
Good Luck with your Journey Nick I hope should you choose to seek diagnosis it works out like it looks like it could....
I'm just floating around aimlessly with random new ideas and the usual influx of setbacks. post holiday (freedom) blues at the minute I love camping because you do what you need to do when you need to do it, assuming you haven't left everything at home that is
This year I had a big list and a big marker pen, and still the packing was started late and into the wee hours followed by 3 hours sleep and a "focused" drive to our destination.
glad my ramblings offer something to someone lol.
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Post by computermandan on Jul 14, 2014 11:33:09 GMT
pretty much EVERYTHING i post on facebook... "must stop posting on facebook" "must stop commenting on wife's friends statuses" "must stop deliberately antagonising people on facebook" doh.
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Post by computermandan on Jul 6, 2014 21:29:26 GMT
visited GP on Sat.. got an (un)healthy dose of shingles it seems... doc says caused by stress... lol.
also mentioned secretary has passed on request for referral to Maudesly to some governing body, something to do with funding... they're waiting on that.
stuck.
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Post by computermandan on Jul 2, 2014 11:36:38 GMT
we get JW's a lot down our street - I think there's a meeting house or something nearby. I've developed the "i'm not going to waste your or my time" line to seem like I'm doing us both a favour and quickly follow it with a "thanks bye" and close the door.
although I did come home once and found a windows salesperson with his foot wedged in the door with my OH clearly trying to get rid of him.
chased him down the street insisting he give me his employers name etc etc - lost it a little bit there.
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Post by computermandan on Jun 6, 2014 10:14:45 GMT
So as per Psychologists instructions I actually remembered to chase up the GP ten days later than suggested... GP secretary said "yes we've had the letter, is there anything else?" Dan said "erm... i don't know what do you normally do?" secretary "i'll check the doctor, which doctor do you usually see" Dan "The one you say is there for an appointment" Secretary "ok i'll chase a doctor" Dan "ok thanks"
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Post by computermandan on May 6, 2014 19:34:43 GMT
well had next psych appt today... and almost out of the blue got... "we don't have the funds for ADHD clinic here but I will write to your GP and ask him to refer you to Maudesly for assesment"... cue gobsmacked err yes please...
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Post by computermandan on May 2, 2014 9:53:35 GMT
had enough of Citalopram. probably a VERY bad idea but not going to get repeat prescription. I am 100% not anxious about issues, but I am 100% unmotivated to do anything... lists, jobs, focus, and generally caring about anything very much has slipped by the wayside and whilst thinking Yay it's all good because I'm not stressing out... all things are all over the place again.
I have no idea when next appointment is. I have no idea what to say. I think I might wander off and sleep in the woods and get eaten by insects, but I suspect it might take a long time and I'll probably not stay still long enough.
right now I'm not sure if I'm being silly because I am not swallowing my pills all of a sudden or because I'm actually fed up......
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Post by computermandan on May 2, 2014 9:37:17 GMT
at the moment it all feels a bit "well this is it then" suddenly feeling that you probably won't be able to push the career on that step further without extra effort compared with others is somewhat demotivating. couple that with being married to someone who now seems to be so much the opposite to you (get it done and get it done yesterday style) that all the times you've been told and tried to battle with "you're not listening" and "you're not interested" accusations it's disheartening... right now I'm not really sure where to turn. I've tried to explain that it seems silly to pretend I was listening and guess what was said now that I'm aware of "it" But saying "sorry I was distracted can you say it again" in an honest attempt to refocus seems to go down much worse than the pretending ever did So the person closest is really not having any of it... as are the folks... they seem to listen but don't make much of it and generally seem more interested in making sure I don't take too much medicine. Friends appear to understand but ridicule the whole concept at the same time... and as for the so-called mental health professionals... well - "here have a higher dose of something that probably wont do much" is the general response and I don't ever seem to get past that stage - "you are anxious Daniel".... I've had good advice here but dont ever seem able to action it in a scaredy cat kind of way... oops just realised this is way off topic sorry. toyed with deleting but decided to post anyway.
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Post by computermandan on Apr 28, 2014 13:32:35 GMT
I'm not DX (yet- i think??) but since becoming 'aware' of ADHD - i'm scarily MORE ADHD... My Wife says it's me using it as an excuse now I can see it. I think I've given up the whole pretending to be on the ball when my mind's been elsewhere amongst many other frantic running around compensations. I like that others have noticed similar
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Post by computermandan on Apr 28, 2014 13:26:29 GMT
I ditched caffeine a short while ago - played havoc with my head, emotions, reactions, oddly enough I just slept as soon as I stopped moving around though so wife and kids weren't too impressed by results. Didn't sleep any better at night either withdrawals faded after 3 weeks for me... keep it up!
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