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Post by computermandan on Sept 8, 2015 12:01:25 GMT
you know you have "suspected" ADHD when even the nagging reminder of excruciating back pain doesn't help you to get round to calling the physio to make that appointment the GP referred you for after the slipped disc was confirmed...
now where was that number? ? ? ?
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Post by computermandan on Sept 8, 2015 11:58:28 GMT
Hi contrarymary yep looking back we're on a similar timescale. can't help thinking that funding has been cut somewhere (as in everywhere) so nothing's happening at the other end... in the mean time I think I might start sellotaping myself together to stop me from falling apart. lol I can only laugh to prevent disaster!
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Post by computermandan on Sept 7, 2015 13:01:12 GMT
Cue singing.... "wooaah I'm an alien..." sorry had to post it - me too.
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Post by computermandan on Sept 7, 2015 12:57:21 GMT
Hi ana - i did have an assessment in march but there was not enough evidence in childhood symptoms for a there and then diagnosis. which although frustrating makes sense. I am supposed to be getting news of further assesments to try and understand my issues and possibly lead to a diagnosis... but its gone quiet. I've spoken with the reception and cleared up some confusion (see last post june-sih) I haven't heard since and remembered to look back here just now to see if I can summon the willpower to chase it up again. this happens all the time with me so I'm at least partly to blame I guess I didn't realise it had been so long though. it's hard work.
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Post by computermandan on Jun 29, 2015 10:00:30 GMT
well I gathered enough braincells to both remember to bring my report to work and to find a minute to call Maudsley to check if anything is happening... I'm not 100% sure but I think the fact a different assessment was suggested somehow got missed by the staff in charge of booking etc.
it happens.
anyway I think that we're on track - I managed to point of to the receptionist that a "neuropsychological assesment" was suggested followed by what I guess would be a follow up summary type thing some time afterwards I was told an email will be sent to the person needed to book these things and I would probably get a letter or a call regarding an appointment.
back to waiting...
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Post by computermandan on Jun 24, 2015 9:08:00 GMT
and I'd hasten to add reading some very sensitive posts here has made me quetion whether I am just a meanie lol
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Post by computermandan on Jun 24, 2015 9:07:12 GMT
number four in the house! i come across as incredibly uncaring and non empathetic and in psych consultations it was suggested i lack empathy in a way that made the chap suggest aspergers over adhd. its very hard to reign in when generally talking to my kids. you cant go round wishing the world dead by laser cannon in front of everyone after all
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Post by computermandan on Jun 9, 2015 10:32:39 GMT
lol thanks gemstone... we'll see... eventually
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Post by computermandan on Jun 3, 2015 23:56:39 GMT
yeah its all a bit wooooaaahhh at first. the diagnosis guides help with understanding it a bit.
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Post by computermandan on Jun 3, 2015 23:27:43 GMT
woah thats massive lol
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Post by computermandan on Jun 3, 2015 23:27:16 GMT
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Post by computermandan on Jun 3, 2015 23:18:41 GMT
quick - somewhat mega late update.
report from assessment stated things like 8/9 traits for ADHD as an adult and 2/9 traits as a child. mostly formed on mine and my dad's input on questions asked....
I will dig out the image - wont post the whole q&A as it's a bit long winded but the "score" section shows how I didn't get diagnosed on the day.
They do say in the report (sent in march!) that they want to offer me to come back for different test - cognitive and intelligence tests of some kind from memory.
I really must chase them though...
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Post by computermandan on Jun 3, 2015 10:09:52 GMT
When you come to this specific thread after too long away from it just to recover from your depressive state of mind. It's good to see it's still not just me... diagnosed or not
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Post by computermandan on Mar 25, 2015 22:40:42 GMT
computermandan you still sound very like me, whatever the label(s) end up being....and i'm also a bit concerned as to what effect my mother's input might have - she's always tended to cover up and gloss over any family issues, and is likely to simply say "she was fine, got on well, achieved just fine" despite all my own experience to the contrary. isn't the changing mood thing an adhd symptom? and isn't also that part of the same thing as "negative experience, negative mood, everything catastrophic; positive input, positive mood, everything amazing" xx lol i guess so when i read it back. its being able to do something positive about it that worries me. apologies duckster if this has hijacked your post a little
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Post by computermandan on Mar 25, 2015 15:25:03 GMT
ok.. backwards step here... I guess you could say I am depressed but dealing with it (sometimes badly sometimes ok) I felt little benefit from the meds for the depression. I felt a need after counselling to fix the source rather than sticking plaster it all. I'm ok at the moment, but I haven't got a diagnosis yet either way. waiting on a second assessment appointment at maudsley and hopefully a decision after that. it's not easy as while undiagnosed when you think it is something, you could still be wrong. I feel a bit of a con artist who's trying to convince someone at times, so I probably over compensate in trying to just show who i am not who i think i am. (if thats logical?) my wife accuses me of excuse making and relying on thinking I am/have adhd. I was assessed I think for autism/adhd/aspergers as the community psych reports kept referring back to aspergers as he'd clung to my social shyness and awkwardness and clumsiness in conversation. I'll be honest if there isn't a diagnosis at the end of this and I have a strong negative feeling that may end up being the case as my parents reiterate i was "just a normal kid" over and over - I'm not really sure what I will do. having had another annual work review today and same old... lateness, timesheets not filled out, never completes tasks, lack of motivation, lack of confidence "objectives" are set I struggle to see where I could move on to next. sorry if this is a bit negative. I kind of roll in and out of both sides a lot and easily forget what mood i thought I was in five minutes ago
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Post by computermandan on Mar 19, 2015 12:45:28 GMT
thanks for the replies I hope you don't mind me asking, Computermandan, but was there a reason why you went to the doctors? as in... what i am trying to say is that, with me, i was actually really depressed where as you never sounded depressed? (apologies if i have this wrong). Also, how did it go with your mam? Hi No worries, share and share alike and all that. I had been "suffering" with whatever for a long time. most of the things I might now call symptoms I always thought were just weird stuff that were just me. I had no highs and no lows just boring middle ground, kind of lost interest in everything and it was bothering everyone around me... so the first GP visit the diagnosis was depressive - low mood. I did some counseling and took some fluoxetine. felt a little better after a year but same cycle of issues led me back to the docs... The real hit and ADHD light bulb came with some more serious marital issues and my wife telling me how it was... you don't listen, you don't talk, you're always in your own world, you'd rather spend time on your PC, you're only ever on time when it's something YOU want to do you're like a child in the morning - you never get up, you're always late etc etc etc. So I hit the GP again and got re-diagnosed with depression and more fluoxetine. trial separation (moved in with my folks for a month) didn't really eat at all and lost a couple of stone in the process. spent all my time at work and home between googling where I was going wrong in life and checking up on my wife (not good idea btw). I worked out how to access her phone bypassing the pin she'd put on all of a sudden and it turns out she was texting my brother in law lots (around 1500 texts a month!) and had (in her words) "fallen" for him as I never paid her any attention. Well after clearing up the mess and lots of shouty threatening nonsense we talked and I can admit she was pretty unhappy and despite numerous attempts it never really sunk in with me how unhappy she was. Most of her issues relate to how bad i am with money, bad decisions, building site for a house, but the biggest all rounder is the broken promises... I'll do this in a minute, or I'll do this job at the weekend etc... hold on thats a massive tangent sorry... in any case Adult ADHD came up in almost every google search I did and so I looked into it. did a lot of online tests and it pretty much summed up I'm generally inattentive and slightly impulsive and it might be adhd. so I went to speak to the GP about it and she referred me to the local pscyh and we went from there. apologies for the ramble! Dan.
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Post by computermandan on Mar 4, 2015 23:09:13 GMT
Oh I mean trainee not trannie... loving the explanation haha.
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Post by computermandan on Mar 4, 2015 16:15:44 GMT
Hi Duckster!
I have just been through almost exactly the same process as it sounds you are about to.
I was diagnosed with depression initially - put on fluoxetine and then came off it after six months as I felt it wasn't really changing anything.
spent a year or so backwards and forwards with GP, Counselors and eventually stumbled on ADHD and discussed it with GP in a similar way it seems as you have.
I was referred to a local community psychologist and saw him every 2 months or so over a period of 18 months. we discussed adhd, aspergers autism and depression. he prescribed me all sorts of anti-depressants hoping to cure anxiety and bad sleep habits i think. none of which helped really at all.
he said I wasn't impulsive or hyperactive which is true to an extent as I'm predominantly quiet and very inattentive if anything. eventually in july 2014 I think he agreed to recommend a referral to my GP surgery.
They took 3 months to agree to the referral as it had to go through a funding meeting or something.
Then I was referred in september for an ADHD assessment at the Maudsley clinic - I was offered an appointment in Dec and then Feb (which I couldn't make unfortunately) and eventually went for the assessment last week.
hopefully gives you an idea of the timescale for me. not sure if I will get diagnosed or not through lack of childhood info. someone from Muadsley is actually booked to speak with my mother today to gather more information.
I should call her and see how it went actually lol.
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Post by computermandan on Feb 24, 2015 8:03:33 GMT
ok so second part was actually more adhd related discussion formed around questions. It was clear there's not enough childhood examples of any symptoms for a positive diagnosis and that's what was summarised at the end too.
me as i am now there's clearly issues and its clear i was a daydreamer 7-12 but no impairment as such. The suggestion was made that perhaps because my childhood was so well structured no symptoms became obvious but they need more info before i can be dismissed or diagnosed.
so a phonecall to my mother to discuss what she remembers (i guess questionnaire based) and me going in for some kind of psycho analytic tests (not sure if thats the right word) is going to happen next to build a better picture.
to be honest it all seems fair enough to me.
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Post by computermandan on Feb 23, 2015 15:42:42 GMT
So.... just out of step 1 at the Maudsley assessment. waiting so thought i would post.
mentally drained already it was questions and discussion around the questionnaires sent in the post before.
got a little emotional towards the end when asked what would other people hope you got out of this etc etc but otherwise hope i answered accurately.
next step some other thing about i think autism but i suspect this is a little overkill by my referrer and a question from the last chap made me feel he thought possibly the same.
update later need to rest my head lol
dan
p.s. had trainee sit in on assessment and she was a very attractive lady lol
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Post by computermandan on Jan 27, 2015 13:23:22 GMT
sounds interesting - i can imagine acting up monty python style as I pretty much tend to do once comfortable with people... much to the OH's disgust generally. i have just started learning a martial art, a friend goes so always reminds me of the class. I find it therapeutic too - I'm not learning much very quickly and must look a bit stupid, but when the gloves and pads come out it's very stress relieving
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Post by computermandan on Dec 30, 2014 14:06:06 GMT
I remember that empty feeling after looking after my nan on her deathbed... i can only describe it as weird too. it almost sucks a little life out of you helping someone else get there (not helping but you know what i mean). I recall with my nan she'd had a fall and it triggered renal failure ultimately. she was almost lifeless for a good 8 hours into the night. sat in the the hospital with my motionless mother (she was literally statuesque at the whole thing) cleaning up any mess and calling the priest etc (nan was VERY catholic with three nuns for sisters). the bit that got me was when the priest arrived - this lifeless little old lady almost became completely alert in bed and joined in with the prayers (albeit in a very weak manner) of her last rites. this threw me a little and kind of helped me cling to some vague hope that there is something beneficial in some kind of belief. mind wanders down that road all to often and when thoughts of possibility of any of my kids going first it gets all a little depressive. at the end of it all it springs back to making the most of now i guess though. sorry for your loss gremico.
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Post by computermandan on Dec 30, 2014 13:54:10 GMT
locked in my own office... groaning... entering dates and times and nonsense of no importance (except for some it seems) into 12 weeks worth of timesheets on our computer system.....
i hate timesheets.
what are they even for I write the same nonsense in them everytime why cant they just copy them?
I dont even get paid by the hour or day or whatever.
arrrrggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhh!!!!
is it wrong to consider other employment just to avoid timesheets?
time for more coffee......
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Post by computermandan on Dec 10, 2014 15:24:46 GMT
Have you called them [NHS] to ask if the original slots have been re-assigned yet, or have you assumed this? I spoke with a lady named Lola who seems to be responsible for it. I believe the slot has been booked now.
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Post by computermandan on Dec 9, 2014 10:37:55 GMT
... I decide it's too early to go to bed at 23:30. I can just (insert quite reasonable task to do on the computer). Next time I look at the clock - shit! It's 01:30 - again. Another night with 5 hours sleep coming up. At least 5/7 days a week lol
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Post by computermandan on Dec 9, 2014 10:35:42 GMT
When you manage to convince your bosses that you get more work done at home, so you are allowed to wfh 4 days of the week, and the one day you do go in to the office (2 1/4 hours away in London) you get home to realise that you have left the company laptop charger in the office and don't have a spare. I have done this SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many times too lol... although Dunstable to Watford isn't so bad.
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Post by computermandan on Dec 9, 2014 10:32:05 GMT
"Mr C.M.Dan" i love it lol. Thanks supine for the support and effort gone into your post too! unfortunately EVERYONE (wife, colleagues in the know, friends etc) have all said the same thing and in hindsight I should have listened to you guys in the first place and stood my ground. there is actually a policy in place here regarding notice for holidays etc. that hasn't really been adhered to. case of small business thats actually got quite big and hasn't caught up with itself properly. in any case because I rushed in and tried to rearrange the appointment is cancelled so i'd be cutting off nose to spite face if i rush in again and kick up a fuss now. some close friends & colleagues have all said the same thing though.. .time to move on. I just loathe job hunting I'm so lame at it. and part of the excuse staying here I guess is it's a little easy and I get away with my quirks a lot.
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Post by computermandan on Dec 8, 2014 15:39:33 GMT
ok so well the appointment had to be cancelled, dubious as it may be I was told I couldn't take the time off as my colleague had booked a holiday already. I called and cancelled - remembered to do it there and then for once. however they couldn't rearrange at the time so had to call back today. lol next issue... couldn't get back to back appointment when I called as apparently the assesment involves 2 clinician appointments. now to take my Dad with me I don't think I can drag him from work twice so wanted a single appt. so now have to call back next week on monday. can only blame myself for this one as I didn't stand firm on dates in the first instance. ho hum. on another note - got a lot of post from maudsley today so suspect the postal copy of the questionnaires has arrived. now to try and focus on not getting grumpy over christmas (well not Christmas so much as having no money for presents, and remembering not to forget anyone)
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Post by computermandan on Dec 1, 2014 22:23:21 GMT
Know what you mean - I'm sure he will okay it and rearrange any plans he's a good guy really. He gets the call as he approves it and passes it to senior bosses from there... Pains of working in a two person IT Dept I guess. Thanks for the suggestions - I've printed the questionnaires and read through them tonight.
Typical me I thought of January as months away not six weeks... All of a sudden it seems closer than I'd thought
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Post by computermandan on Dec 1, 2014 17:06:49 GMT
there's all sorts of questionnaires attached to the email to fill out pre-appt. I've just skimmed through them - I hope I don't forget to sort them out. I think I will ask my Dad if he can come along but I'll probably forget to ask in time for him to arrange things. also my boss has suggested the date might not fit because he "might" be going away then... like he "might" be going away before xmas. I guess I fit in round everyone else's plans again eh (one day I'll stand up for meself!!). groan... hate complications.
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