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Post by manson88 on Jul 26, 2015 14:51:17 GMT
I reorder when I get down to my last 7 so there's no messing about. Sometimes I get caught out though #notfunny
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Post by manson88 on Jul 24, 2015 22:16:25 GMT
Wavey75 Your are the man. Respect to you! if you have done this or helping someone to do it or have helped someone. I admire your passion. My anxiety wouldn't let me do this..
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Post by manson88 on Jul 24, 2015 16:21:09 GMT
Without being rude, Whenever the time comes I will pm you Wavey75 seems like you know what your at!
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Post by manson88 on Jul 23, 2015 23:10:04 GMT
£50,000,
You could live well on £50,000 a year. But I would have it paid in 12 instalments..
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Post by manson88 on Jul 18, 2015 19:51:34 GMT
Has there been any improvements in NI's view on adhd? I don't want a doctor to just dismiss me without even a thought No, you got to be joking. We are all in a situation where there's gonna be more cuts to save money. Which part always suffers most? M/health off course. I was diagnosed this year by an ordinary psychiatrist. Adhd centre in northern Ireland will be light years away. Wanna chat to me how I managed give me pm. Happy to help. Manson88
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Post by manson88 on Jul 14, 2015 22:46:13 GMT
No complaints here! Lol
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Post by manson88 on Jul 10, 2015 7:00:52 GMT
This is were I'm starting to feel the nature of the my disabilities.
Have been looking for jobs. Trying to stay part time. But there's not much part time jobs closer to home to reduce travel costs etc.
Trying to keep between 8am and 5pm to stay in tune with family time school run etc.
I have no qualifications, just life experience. (due to dyslexia) Like a lot of us I have various levels of mental health issues. Chuck in ADD there as well for good measure.
Though I'm encouraged to apply for DLA by mental health support charities. Cause if we don't as a society there will be less money set aside for it next year by local government.
But he truth is that our conditions don't appear to have a big enough impact on my life to get the benefit awarded. To have someone to attend to us.
Though it's not about being attended to. Its about trying to stay out of social deprivation. Cause the conditions have the impact
But our issues prevent us in a lot of ways from living at the levels that of the neurotypicals whom we are expected to follow.
I feel personally overwhelmed and under pressure by what has happened in the last few days. It was hard before the budget now it's gonna be harder.
I reckon that I'm going to lose £3,000 a year. (are house just earns below the £23,000) That is before the min wage goes up 70p. 60£ a week I'm set to loose.
This is were the benefit system is wrong cause there nothing to stop a neurotypical couple or family to drop out of full time work and fill in the forms.
I live with a neurotypical wife who just can't get it. The whole me package. My dyslexia, mental health, and Adhd. Who is just like the rest of the neurotypicals don't get it. Judges us and condemn us.
Things were hard before now they it's gonna be even harder.
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Post by manson88 on Jul 9, 2015 14:25:47 GMT
I've directed my GP to this site I went to see him to get a new script for some Pregabalin, he asked how I was getting on and how my ADHD is. I told him how beneficial this site was right from the beginning, and how it feels a bit like coming home. Having people rant about losing stuff that was JUST IN THEIR HAND lol. He made a note of it to put in his info file. He's a good GP. I won't see anyone else. Is the pregabalin effective for you ? I have been on it now for 11 months for anxiety I'm on 75mg twice daily.
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Post by manson88 on Jul 8, 2015 17:48:08 GMT
I hear you on that one @mason88. I am self-employed but earn very little due to ADHD and the amount of hours I can do, but have been turned down for any help wherever I try. It is so frustrating, I feel like a little fish that just keeps slipping through the net! Like a wee fish swimming against the current! ?
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Post by manson88 on Jul 8, 2015 14:48:28 GMT
I'm sickened to be honest. There making it harder for the disadvantaged.
I'm like a lot of people here who have conditions but aren't seen serious enough to warrant DLA. But we are fit for some work.
Now we are getting hammered again taken a benefit from us designed to make up are wages. Cause we can't operate at a level the neurotypicals can.
They have given money to the neurotypicals those who have been lucky enough to get through school system and been successful, achieved good grades. Now successful with quality jobs.
The way it stands now I'm set to loose £60 a week I'm going to have to try get a job with more hours.
I just don't know were is gonna end?
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Post by manson88 on Jun 30, 2015 13:40:45 GMT
blaze like your first paragraph. We get that bogged down & in grossed in are own situation we forget who we really are. X
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Post by manson88 on Jun 28, 2015 8:29:07 GMT
I know it doesn't answer your question. I have trouble sleep it was worse when I wasn't on any Adhd medication.
I am on melatonin I'm 40. I was told that you get to our stage in life you need less sleep.
But, I would love to be able to sleep like what you are describing. That sleep were you get in bed at 11 pm and that is it till 7am.
No one or thing to waking me no anxiety or racing thoughts..
Oh what would it be like to sleep like a teenager!
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Post by manson88 on Jun 21, 2015 5:04:18 GMT
Yum! I was gonna say - stick the kettle on I'm on my way over lol But then I realised that the cake has all the nice things taken out of it :(it's not for me! Lol
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Post by manson88 on Jun 19, 2015 19:49:47 GMT
Babble Just hang in there, Just think of where are now & what you have to do to get where you wanna be! Don't give up or give in just remember that it took me 4 years to get a proper DX! Keep at it!
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Post by manson88 on Jun 17, 2015 20:48:30 GMT
I just want you to know I would like to read your contribution towards the forum.
But due to my dyslexia I'm put of with big blocks of writing, it gets tiresome reading something 6 times - losing my place cause the lines merge or a distraction outside.
Between my eye strain & concentration blocks of writing are difficult. Just because someone is inconsiderate the way they are writing.
Just remember dyslexia is a cormorbidity of Adhd..
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Post by manson88 on Jun 17, 2015 14:04:26 GMT
Small paragraphs would be nice makes reading more enjoyable.
Thanks folks, manson88
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Post by manson88 on Jun 14, 2015 6:48:12 GMT
@ leftbehind1 I love your words here you discrimination of life and society pressures put on us. It never ceases to amaze me how ADHD continues to destroy my ability to make good decisions and do the right thing , the responsible thing, I Loath the obliteration of clarity that ADHD causes, to my decisions my memory and the fabric of time , So frustrating, the right decision would actually benefit me..ADHD is so destructive to the structure of my life,, my grandmothers choice of words ,, is "be good to myself" ADHD try's to kick the legs from under me in every turn , like a game with a child . Set backs are inevitable either straight away or slowly over time , I can't realistically and accurately plan to the future and Forsee setbacks ,I fail to focus enough attention my mind just fights to engage because it's so boring , attention (that word is so simplistic now it just does not conceptualise the meaning it just goes over the head) if I managed to pass the first two hurdles of distraction and planning ,and forsee , il be beaten by a memory that resembles frosted glass or a bottomless dark hole. to make a dream a reality is ironically just my dream , I can barely focus in the now, without the environment constantly tormenting me , grabbing my attention like my mind is split into three ,letting all my focus and fragile plans fall through the cracks into the bottomless dark hole. It brings about anxiousness, it drives me mad. because anxiety on the surface can be misinterpretated as weakness , when it is actually stemming from inability to smoothly process your environment. Every forgotten step, every distraction ,every impulsive moment , every procrastination "one step closer to a fall , , this is gloomy ,but ultimately my very real and possible outcome . Anyone without ADHD at this point would do everything they could to work and make productive decisions to protect themselves and sustain a life. But the executive functions disorder still stands, along with depression and anxiety . So round and round i go , the definition of insanity defnitley equates here . We're does it end , we're does this cycle get alieviated if not prolonged between Set backs . I have no foresight to resolution, so I'm constantly in a state of superficial hope, stability is a mirage. This shit is like a cancer , just festering and eating away at the structure of my life , from childhood to current, My attempt to be normal is superficial and inaccurate ,but this is what is really going on .everyday my blindness is just keeping me at a level of functioning ,never above only below ,so my capacity for quality of life ,I believe is always going to be poor , I need a job that , works for me, that I won't want to throw myself of a bridge at the end of each day. everything I see in society just tells me I have no hope, every achievement I see in others I will likely never have , loving family (mainly because I have vowed never to inflict ADHD on anyone else so no children), a home of my own ,and basically being a functional member of society, And the co morbiditys (morbiditys being the optimal word) I have a very deep seeded bleak unattractive outlook.so it's a self forefilling prophecy , But with the level of under achievement in all facets of life how does one combat it. Hope I guess, even if false hope. I can see what I should do and what would be the best option , but amidst the disorganisation and poor working memory I get distracted and Dont listen to my instincts , I end up on a tangent of half finished tasks, being financially inept, impulsive spending, not guiding myself to a goal without manual structure And losing sight and drive One of the most frustrating concepts of ADHD is that I am not completely incapable of these things, but the disorganisation that ADHD creates is basically a huge big cluster fuck to put it bluntly ,so.i can't choose when to produce, so things need to be put in place to manipulate the way ur brain functions as the primary combatant , but because of the nature of ADHD these strategies arnt always effective or even implemented You just can't win. Try explaining this to someone when they say how does it effect you, uuu I can't focus To this day I believe so many people are ignorant to what the hell we actually mean by can't focus , I've got to the stage were I couldn't give a shit about society and fuck off into the wild and live in a cabin lol Apologies for my morbid rant but negativitys been lurking lol hope I suppose and good level of treatment is key . It never ceases to amaze me how ADHD continues to destroy my ability to make good decisions and do the right thing , the responsible thing, I Loath the obliteration of clarity that ADHD causes, to my decisions my memory and the fabric of time , So frustrating, the right decision would actually benefit me..ADHD is so destructive to the structure of my life,, my grandmothers choice of words ,, is "be good to myself" ADHD try's to kick the legs from under me in every turn , like a game with a child . Set backs are inevitable either straight away or slowly over time , I can't realistically and accurately plan to the future and Forsee setbacks ,I fail to focus enough attention my mind just fights to engage because it's so boring , attention (that word is so simplistic now it just does not conceptualise the meaning it just goes over the head) if I managed to pass the first two hurdles of distraction and planning ,and forsee , il be beaten by a memory that resembles frosted glass or a bottomless dark hole. to make a dream a reality is ironically just my dream , I can barely focus in the now, without the environment constantly tormenting me , grabbing my attention like my mind is split into three ,letting all my focus and fragile plans fall through the cracks into the bottomless dark hole. It brings about anxiousness, it drives me mad. because anxiety on the surface can be misinterpretated as weakness , when it is actually stemming from inability to smoothly process your environment. Every forgotten step, every distraction ,every impulsive moment , every procrastination "one step closer to a fall , , this is gloomy ,but ultimately my very real and possible outcome . Anyone without ADHD at this point would do everything they could to work and make productive decisions to protect themselves and sustain a life. But the executive functions disorder still stands, along with depression and anxiety . So round and round i go , the definition of insanity defnitley equates here . We're does it end , we're does this cycle get alieviated if not prolonged between Set backs . I have no foresight to resolution, so I'm constantly in a state of superficial hope, stability is a mirage. This shit is like a cancer , just festering and eating away at the structure of my life , from childhood to current, My attempt to be normal is superficial and inaccurate ,but this is what is really going on .everyday my blindness is just keeping me at a level of functioning ,never above only below ,so my capacity for quality of life ,I believe is always going to be poor , I need a job that , works for me, that I won't want to throw myself of a bridge at the end of each day. everything I see in society just tells me I have no hope, every achievement I see in others I will likely never have , loving family (mainly because I have vowed never to inflict ADHD on anyone else so no children), a home of my own ,and basically being a functional member of society, And the co morbiditys (morbiditys being the optimal word) I have a very deep seeded bleak unattractive outlook.so it's a self forefilling prophecy , But with the level of under achievement in all facets of life how does one combat it. Hope I guess, even if false hope. I can see what I should do and what would be the best option , but amidst the disorganisation and poor working memory I get distracted and Dont listen to my instincts , I end up on a tangent of half finished tasks, being financially inept, impulsive spending, not guiding myself to a goal without manual structure And losing sight and drive One of the most frustrating concepts of ADHD is that I am not completely incapable of these things, but the disorganisation that ADHD creates is basically a huge big cluster fuck to put it bluntly ,so.i can't choose when to produce, so things need to be put in place to manipulate the way ur brain functions as the primary combatant , but because of the nature of ADHD these strategies arnt always effective or even implemented You just can't win. Try explaining this to someone when they say how does it effect you, uuu I can't focus To this day I believe so many people are ignorant to what the hell we actually mean by can't focus , I've got to the stage were I couldn't give a shit about society and fuck off into the wild and live in a cabin lol Apologies for my morbid rant but negativitys been lurking lol hope I suppose and good level of treatment is key .
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Post by manson88 on Jun 7, 2015 21:36:27 GMT
I was like this when I was on venlafaxine... Would liked to do a whole lot but no motivation to do anything..
Just eat drink tea and rich tea biscuits with butter.
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Post by manson88 on Jun 7, 2015 21:25:12 GMT
I have to the point where I'm thinking of the minor cormorbiditys. If I ever come into the money I would like to get multi sensory test done.
Certain noises bother me. Autism? I know about my anxiety disorders/mental health I know about my dyslexia. I'm aware of my Adhd.
It's well documented if you have one condition you can have some form of the rest... Interesting
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Post by manson88 on Jun 7, 2015 6:25:36 GMT
I think it could well be a trend lol
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Post by manson88 on Jun 6, 2015 22:05:42 GMT
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Post by manson88 on Jun 4, 2015 6:58:14 GMT
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Post by manson88 on Jun 3, 2015 8:26:44 GMT
Oh boy where could I start?
I have a major rant wrote on a note book on a similar topic. Typical Adhd trait I have written it a number of times and deleted it added some to it but haven't finished it as yet.
Another item to finish just like the garden fence lol
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Post by manson88 on May 28, 2015 5:38:22 GMT
Just be careful on mirtazapine you will gain weight on it it's a common problem with it but great for a nights sleep
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Post by manson88 on May 28, 2015 5:38:19 GMT
Just be careful on mirtazapine you will gain weight on it it's a common problem with it but great for a nights sleep
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Post by manson88 on May 27, 2015 19:11:34 GMT
Wow thanks tati I felt like this not long after the psychiatrist appointment(April) . He did me favours but no favours. If he hadn't said that it may stop working I wouldn'tv questioned it through the difficult month of may. Maybe the mistakes in may were due to external issues. Friday 22nd may But what didn't helping was the gp comments when I phoned him to express my concerns of recent issues. The one person who I need on my side just felt as if he turned on me. This is the Dr that reassures me every time before I get my hand shook don't be afraid to give me a call on the way out the door I'm here you know.. Social anxiety - lost the trust. It was that bad that I was going to phone one of the help lines to vent cause I was annoyed I just don't do help lines . (i don't like help lines cause I don't know who I'm talking to or who else is in the room listening. It's the same as Internet banking just impersonal) On top of this I had my toothache/gum issue. I had to go to the dentist & anxiety levels where through the roof. I procrastinated that much about the dentist it took me 10 years to pluck the courage to go to it. Then Sunday morning woke up noticed that I started to get depressed. Was up in the middle of the night looking painkillers. Had my breakfast but an hour later I was in the cupboard looking more carbohydrates endless hunger =depression.
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Post by manson88 on May 27, 2015 13:31:09 GMT
I'm on the other side of things with the Strattera. I convinced that it has stopped working. I have lost the endless energy near enough. Have been making mistakes at work. There has been health issues with family a child was in hospital. I had a minor car accident. Just near enough normal stuff but for people like us these are big issues. I also have been through a work investigation for being rude to a customer 10 days after the Strattera started. Then the weekend past I took a infection in my gum. Then phoned psychiatrist sectary to arrange a appointment cause convinced that the Strattera is not working. Was told to get gp to refer me! Phoned my gp to express my recent m/health issues that the Strattera wasn't working & i got a response back that wasn't appropriate to the way I was feeling. Wasn't happy with the fact that he had to confirm my whish for an appointment. Just let's put May behind us, June is a fresh beginning hopefully I get my strattera sorted. tati I feel the way you do useless, inadequate & swimming in my own negatively . To me the Strattera seems hit & miss but my first 10 weeks on it was brilliant. But was warned that it could stop working at my last psychiatrist appointment.
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Post by manson88 on May 20, 2015 7:29:44 GMT
I just wanted to put this in that this medication battle that petra has had just shows how difficult it is to not just get a DX but the most important thing is the treatment. 3 years petra? I personally know what it's like trying to achieve such result. I didn't have the battle of getting treated but I did have a battle trying to convince them that I had conditions. Let this be a prime example today anyone coming on here thinking of trying to get a DX. Just read the story or stories of people that have went before you it is hard, difficult, time consuming energy draining process. One process that creates stress, torment and anxiety along the way.. Again like all of us you have held in there in fought your corner and you have a result!!! "Fortune favors the brave" Manson88
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Post by manson88 on May 20, 2015 5:53:02 GMT
I have been in all the 32 countries of Ireland at some stage. Classes C 1, C, & C&E.
It's a difficult job well for me anyway, I have dyslexia & the two anxiety disorders. I enjoyed the life of the road meeting new people new towns and villages every day. But is the impact of the job on your wellbeing worth going on with?
It tipped me over the edge it brought all my life long issues out. Not reading documents properly. Not working as hard as the rest of the drivers cause I took my breaks. My anxiety would not allow me to do that I was always afraid of getting caught so I never done it.
Getting things wrong, turning up at wrong times pulling of items that were for the next job and making too many mistakes too often.
Getting telephone conversation wrong not taken all the information in. People phoning you wanting to know how long you be example ; your partner the yard or the customer.
Then there's the people in the offices they don't have a clue. Then there was a investigation for every mistake made.
I was the talk of the every warehouse and every yard that I ever went to including are own, here's your man who can drive but can't read. Social anxiety the fear of judgment.
Your simply not concentrating fella sure I told you I'm dyslexic! But that's only your reading! You just don't care.
I have spent 10 years of my life driving on the road as a job. I drive vans now with a well established car dealership.
It has it's own issues just same old same old. I do 20 calls a day I work part time I still have the same performance record and patterns of any other job I have been in.
It was 2012 the Olympic year I had a nervous breakdown that was that on the sick for 6 months ontil I recovered enough to get back to work at a level were it was just enough stress. So that's why I'm driving vans.
It's your choice it has a impact on your lifestyle. I rode bicycles and raced on and off down the years. When I was driving full time I couldn't keep this up.
This is the thing that keeps me well. Hard physical exercise is one of the things that they recommend for anxiety and Adhd.
Dnt let me put you off this is only my experience but I would leave it all in the morning. I'm on the national minimum wage and there's easier jobs out there for less hassle.
Any questions don't be afraid to ask.
Manson88
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Post by manson88 on May 19, 2015 21:51:43 GMT
petra You can hold your head!! So proud of what you have achieved. You have worked so hard to get where you are what's more you done it on your own!! I rise my glass of beer to as a toast!!
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