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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 17:54:29 GMT
As long as you've cleaned the cave and prepared a fire to cook the food by the time he gets back...........
your hoping un you .. .....Which is highly unlikely if you're ADHD - more than highly unlikely i'd say - - - maybe thats where it all started going wrong My apologies for turning this thread into something completely irrelevantshould think so - like you'd ever see any of rest of us do that
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 17:45:58 GMT
we pretty flexible on rules on here don't dis the regulars is about only one i've seen come up so far bur sure regulars wouldn't see anyone get dis ed really
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 14:31:04 GMT
up to you - but if was me i would TELL him - can't function so have to stop taking it life hard enough - without being impeded even more by a medication you don't even think you need ie your not depressed !! am i right ? course have to stroke their egos in way that you put it
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 14:25:37 GMT
found num - written underneath my reminder about going on my bloody phone makes sense suppose if remember its there shame didn't find it till 15 min after was supposed to be there makes me seem unreliable - hate that - cos i'm really not he must be only guy that works in a library in london who hasn't been on line today
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 13:10:00 GMT
Hi Was watching Stephen Fry's documentary on bipolar disorder and he asked sufferers the question 'If there was a button sitting in front of you that could make it all go away, would you press it?' Thought I'd echo this question.. Would you press a button that got rid of your symptoms for the rest of your life? Would have to be no for me I think. Despite all the shit I've caused for myself and others I like being different through good times and bad! a few seconds ago QuoteEditlikePost Options Post by jan on a few seconds ago imnotnutty Member's not posted much yet * imnotnutty Avatar Posts: 20 30 Apr 2012 at 10:30pm QuotelikePost Options Post by imnotnutty on 30 Apr 2012 at 10:30pm I would press the button.... If I remembered where I last put the button to find it again.......if I remembered to press the button when I was supposed to......if I didnt get sidetracked by something else on the way to pressing the button......if I didnt interupt the person telling me about the button.......if i could ensure that I didnt mess up by pressing the wrong button....if I didnt manage to break the button.....and I could press it several times in quick succession and I could do it loudly!!!!!!!!!! ......and become normal.............. ?? HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!! soooooo funny - me to a t - thats if i'd even remember there was a button - what was the question ? can't work out how to resurrect this thread after half an hour am giving up - worth a read though
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 12:23:19 GMT
i havn't even made it to the window just wanna fast forward to tommorow - and hope for the best
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 12:05:08 GMT
no one knows then ? all too busy looking out bloody window
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 11:06:12 GMT
well i'm still in bed feelin shit fuzzy brain and a cold supposed to be working - have txt and got no reply - causing me anxiety as worried they not got message and still expecting me but am in one of my moods where can't handle talking on phone - know what i mean? just not gonna happen - unless its a life or death situation and am supposed be volunteering at peoples library at 3 till 5 and cant find their num or guy that does rotas num anywhere why are these numbers not in my phone ? prob cos are written on piece of paper somewhere with no indication of name to go with them have e mailed but no reply - more anxiety why is life so complicated ?
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 9:59:10 GMT
maybe try and get to speak to him on the phone - if your feeling conflicted about it personally - when comes to meds i go with my gut reaction (no pun intended )
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Post by jan on Oct 16, 2013 9:40:19 GMT
hi dan am i right - your talking about the effects of mirtazapine ? = not adhd meds as you not dx yet ? sorry if have got that wrong - there;s so many new people on meds on here lately. personally - all anti depressants / anti psychotics that i have taken over years have had negative effect on me and usually as your saying now make me feel like am walking through glue! wouldn't want to tell you what to do dan - but if there's no benefit then whats the point ?
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 22:51:01 GMT
i've read a quarter of it (4 times though ) and done - none of it but bet i'm the only one that's carried it - at least 650 miles (only 600 of them included to liverpool and back ) WILL GET THERE IN THE END THOUGH ! slow but sure
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 22:04:18 GMT
yep have posted this before out and about all day and come home and try open my front door by swiping the lock with my oyster card have also pointed my keys at oyster thingy on bus and on tube
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 21:02:58 GMT
apparently average height for men is 5'9 - 5' 9.5 in wales - and for women 5'4 , so anything over that is tall really ?- men in wales have sprouted up since i lived there then they used to all be little duts
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 20:54:06 GMT
which he did as well shall we clean the kitchen - ? good idea - where's michael offered me a coffee - didn't even get as far as putting water in kettle
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 19:41:50 GMT
you'd get best of everything sounds great to me - havn't spoke to my sibling for years and when did all we did was fight
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 19:30:13 GMT
have always said - anyone with more than one kid is a saint in my book people with 4 or 5 are obviously mentally deranged
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 19:07:16 GMT
tallish - def not short anyway - used to be lovely and slim ( what fuck went wrong i do not know ) - havn't clue how or where to tick wish could say was just made to look pretty - gather daffodils maybe EDIT my first succecful tick in a poll - aaaaww a special moment
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 8:42:37 GMT
hi nell been away at conference so greetings and belated welcome to the forum fantastic that meds are working out so well for you - sounds like life is on the up so good to hear (looking forward to the day that i cheerfully come home and do housework ) as for your son we know whats best for our kids i believe - its not one size fits all - great that you both having such a positive experience of the besd school - just wish that i had taken my daughter out of school completely - the years she spent there have had a detrimental effect on her self esteem and college wasn't much better
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Post by jan on Oct 15, 2013 6:48:30 GMT
just remembered - jj went home with my notes so wont be today i'l be postin about it as no chance recalling from memory
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Post by jan on Oct 14, 2013 21:13:38 GMT
eh girl - you slacking - remember my rule - everyone should read shout box before they post yep - sorry didn't let you know - have been feeling strange since got in and have been glued on here for past 4 hours or so i think so nice to have lap top again - dd never getting it back i tell you you back ok ?
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Post by jan on Oct 14, 2013 21:07:53 GMT
Thought I'd check in I did try to write something more substantial the other day but it got lost to the internet. Ah well! Anyway, my super productivity seems to have gotten away from me a little bit, but I'm making sure to still chug along and not stop! It's difficult sometimes. And to tell the truth, I've had some weird emotions lately, I can't say it's nice. Do you ever get it where you just can't tell whether you're coming or going, emotionally? The other day I was bawling my eyes out, and it was because of sad despair.. but at the same time, I was ecstatic, it felt so good! hya mighty long time sounds like your very up and down right now - maybe trip to pshyc would be helpful sooner rather than later if this is how your feeling - just to check in and talk over where your at - wouldn't mean you'd necceccarily (can't spell it ) need to go back on the meds but may help to talk sounds like posts have read on another forum about rapid cycling mania/hyper mania if am re itterating that correctly - which i'm probably not - so don't take it as gospel anyhow wishing you peace and strength xx and looking forward to when you get back to posting your thoughts on this thread take care of yourself babe x
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Post by jan on Oct 14, 2013 20:40:35 GMT
well turns out i'm the cheap skate i only offered him my old book - you've actually bought him a new one well good at least that means you'l be coming back to yours then - cos i went to couple mindfulness workshops/seminars whatever their called at the conference and was very impressed and think even more so that this technique is one of best ways forward (for me anyway ). (especially combined with yoga which i'm finding is helping me more and more every week ) and so am glad i kept my book as havn't come anywhere near doing it whilst carrying the book everywhere so wouldn't be hope in hell without it am knackered tonight and have been on here hours reading and posting - really cos i don't want to be still and start thinking and processing the past few days - but hopefully when have had a decent sleep tonight will be able to share the mindfulness stuff from the conference in a post tomorrow xxxx
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Post by jan on Oct 14, 2013 18:48:58 GMT
hi hayleygood to hear from you again and that things going well i think that 'too good to be true feeling' that you mention is anxiety based - i have often got that in my life - a feeling of dread that things can't stay this good for long - that its just the calm before the storm -and feeling too scared to even allow myself to think about how good things are and therefore not being able to really 'feel' those feelings and enjoy the moment. i think its all to do with us, deep down ,not believing that we deserve to feel so good and that what supine says about learning to forgive ourselves is the answer . in forgiveness comes freedom and when we are free we can fly
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Post by jan on Oct 14, 2013 18:14:47 GMT
Hi Jan Been aw while lovely goddess...life keeps on its rough seas eh? We are so insightful, so sensitive, our crazy bitch is our own enemy most of all.
aint that the truth Sending you love, for that feeling that you expressed, yeah we just have to keep on trying, keep on rockin lolthank you cheekbuddha (only taken me all this time to realise its not 'cheeky' -buddha - (as if ) thanks for the love xx and blessings to you to - (another leo - my life is full of leos )
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Post by jan on Oct 14, 2013 17:38:13 GMT
I lost it in the middle of one of the conference talks. A woman was very loudly insisting that I do a whole list of things to push my diagnosis forward. I was insisting 'I am!!!' after every bit of advice and eventually practically yelled, 'How many times do I have to say "I am!!!" before you listen?' Felt quite shamefaced afterwards. That sounds like a quite reasonable response yay - your posting again dave - excellent - we need your expertise on the nhs unfortunately (hangs head in shame ) i also got very irate with one of the seminar leaders - (who was really nice guy ) in front of room full of people - something have had a good handle on past few years - apart from with darling daughter (and lately not so darling boyfriend ) and is one of things need to process about the weekend cos hate it when i do that but to be fair do hate being told the answer to my parenting problems is to find a strong male role module as have done my very best as a mere woman and -yeah i'l just pop down the co-op and get one (but in fairness to him think he tho ught i had a son )
very embarassing
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Post by jan on Oct 14, 2013 17:09:52 GMT
I've never met anyone from the Internet before and it was a scary but also bizarre experience- you get your mental image of the people whose lives you're sharing, and it's a shock when they don't match it! what lovely posts (from everybody ) xx - as jj says, was weird - no one was as i expected them to be (though i did recognise michael from behind ) Being the first one to leave this evening (they were all staying til the morning), I got 'the fear' as I drove off - "What if they're all breathing a sigh of relief I've gone . What if they were just being nice to me but secretly thought I was a twat . What if they're laughing about me now
afraid i got the fear whilst still there - on last day - but only briefly - and they all 'loved' me back to sanity - just like they do on here with wise words, and the added benefit of huge hugs, smiles and laughter gonna take me time to process it all before can post more - but sooooo glad i went wouldn't of missed meeting you people for the world - you are my tribe xx Sent from my iPhone
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Post by jan on Oct 9, 2013 20:12:39 GMT
does anyone want to go last minute - i have 1 ticket (cost £60 for conference and one ticket £15 for the dinner/entertainment) going if someone wants to buy it. ticket was bought at the concessionary rate - don't know if that makes difference to the price but i wont be saying nothing if you dont
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Post by jan on Oct 9, 2013 20:04:18 GMT
have txt you xx
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Post by jan on Oct 9, 2013 7:39:04 GMT
RIGHT PEOPLE - THATS YOU jj @michael - if your anything like me - time to panic 22 hrs to get sorted for real - 21 for you jj if your leaving for mine at 5.30, jj we in same boat as in u talking about change of mood in other thread, - i have been quite high all week actually for ages really but came down with a bump yesterday and feel like crying one minute and really agitated like a pms feeling the next and had my hair cut and feel like been attacked by a lawn mower have hardly got any hair left . Am considering putting a hormone patch on to try and level me out can't decide . (tried for app at boots for patches but they were booked up till fri - its stoptober in it so busier than usual sorry ). can sort it when we get back though if you want. think i'm anxious about the motorway as well - i hate going fast - havn't been on motorway for years - get freaked just on that road you asked me if is near mine cant rem what its called now - am always arguing with taxi drivers cos i ask them to go slower and they say 'i'm only doing 40 love! ' - well that may be so i say but it feels too fast to me and i'm bloody paying so slow down !!! strange cos when was in my 20's used to thumb up and down the m4 regularly - no prob. right should get off here and pack - and get stressed with darlin daughter cos she thinks i'm the hired help and does fuck all for herself and the mood i'm in i aint doing fuck all for her , she's 19 for fucks sake sort yourself out !!!! - have been trying to get her involved with the ooupy london crew who are squatting a pub in finchley now - but to no avail - i think she's gonna stay at home for ever (oh and on jonboys advice am now not bringing the peanut butter ).
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Post by jan on Oct 8, 2013 22:19:55 GMT
is he going then? he hasn't got adhd has he? Wouldn't that be a blissful surprise? Well, dog has been delivered to S.Ex's for his mini-break. Bag is sort-of packed-ish so I can leave straight from work tomorrow. Trying to think what I might have forgotten, now ... laptop charger? mobile charger? bank card? tooth brush keys for house we staying in ? car keys? petrol? clean knickers?
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